You Didn't Go Away

I didn't go away,
Walking through the rivers
Fighting off the fog,
Rolling in with hangovers,
Feeling lost.

I didn't go away,
Sleeping through the rainstorms
Soaking through the walls,
Tumbling in the tumblers
Filled with gin.

You didn't go away,
Pushing out the pushboat,
Pulling in the corpse,
Beating back the heartache
With the pills.